Be present.

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted and I need an update so my future self can glance back and see what the heck my kids and I were up to.

Lu is over half way done with Pre-K, 4.5yo, 33lbs, 45inches, and just as clever and happy as ever.  She’s still walking to the beat of her own drum, loves Batman and X-men and recently discovered Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles {she’s the coolest}.  Favorite pastime: drawing pictures and gluing stuff to other stuff.

Em, big girl,

Crazy-lady chic

CC is really coming into her own.  She turned 2 last weekend {how the hell did that happen so fast???}, 25bls, I have no idea how tall (75th percentile, I think – poor second kid).  Her favorite word is “no” and favorite phrase is “poopy butt” except she sing-songs it so it comes out like “pooooopeeee buuuu-uuuuut”.  {Thanks Lu for teaching that to your little sister!}.  Favorite pastime: puzzles and doing whatever “sissy” is doing.

birthday, 2, CC

CC’s 2nd birthday

We have recently turned a corner and both girls have been so well behaved for the most part, I don’t feel like hiding with a bottle of wine in the bathtub at the end of the day, and we are all enjoying each others’ company more.  This, folks, is a 180 from the insane tantrums and fighting we were dealing with a few months ago.  Carving out some weekly one-on-one time with Lu has made a huge difference in her attitude in general (read: less whining).  And I’m eating it up and enjoying it while it lasts!

I set some pretty lofty personal goals back in January {I prefer “goals” to “resolutions”}.  As you know, this past Oct. I ran a half marathon in an effort to get myself healthy and fit again. Then in Jan, a CrossFit at a box in a town about 40 min away – holler rural living!  E and I also cleaned up our already pretty healthy diet and the results have been pretty fantastic.  I’m not just talking about the 10+ pounds, 4.5 inches, or 12% body fat I’ve lost; I’m talking about being more even keeled, less moody, NO MORE MIGRAINES, and overall so much more relaxed and less stressed.  And taking care of myself in this way has really made me a better parent.  I no longer slink in from work, flop on the couch with wine, and count down seconds until bedtime {OK, that still happens now and then, but it’s pretty rare these days}.  Now our afternoons are filled with playing outside, running around our huge yard, or in the floor building towers or coloring while E makes dinner.  I can tell they enjoy that time and have fewer outbursts trying to get my attention.

my running buddy

my running buddy

Something else I’ve been trying to focus on is being present.  Not stressing over all the things I have to do in a week, not really worrying about a 5yr plan or all the little insignificant crap that seems to generate more stress than it’s worth.  Just really paying attention to and enjoying moments throughout the day – the girls giggling in their playroom, a delicious meal E prepared, the feeling of victory after a brutal workout.  This is probably the most difficult thing for me, who by nature is always itching for and worrying about the next step – so much so that I nearly miss what’s happening right in front of me.

Overall I’m feeling really good about my place in the world these days and that’s a really great feeling to have.

be present, Em, CC

morning dance party

Happy Holidays!

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As usual, I’m a little late in getting this up.  Happy Holidays to you and yours!

Batman & Robin: Halloween 2012

So…yes, I am aware it’s November and that I’m very late posting about our Halloween adventures.

This year I let Em pick her costume and CC’s.  Of course she wanted to be Batman {she’s completely obsessed} and deemed CC the perfect Robin.  Presenting the cutest little Batman & Robin.

Em and CC dressed up like Batman and Robin

 

They were entirely too uncooperative for superheros and this is the best shot I could get.  Lots of whining about going to next door to get ALL THE CANDY!  We walked around the hood for awhile while Em confidently walked up to every door, CC’s hand in hers.  Then as soon as the door opened CC dropped her candy bucket and ran up the walk to hide behind my leg, peeking out only point and say “CANDY PEAS!”  Ha!

It was pretty cold so we headed to my aunt’s.  This aunt is practically a 3rd grandmother to my girls and thinks every holiday is a good excuse to be excessive.  The loot from Aunt C’s:

Batman and Robin get their loot             Robing and her candy

After three hours, copious amounts of sugar, one epic tantrum by Robin, and a sucker-in-the-hair incident we finally made it home.  I can’t promise they were bathed, but we all had a great time!

P.S. We weighed the candy and it was upwards to 6lbs.  SIX POUNDS OF CANDY, FOLKS!  I’ve had to exercise some serious restraint in the last few weeks.

Fall Foodie: Mushroom & Barley Soup

Fall is my favorite time of year and after a miserable, stifling, hot summer I cannot being to express how excited I am.  Boots and sweaters, cool runs, and of course, FOOD!  My husband jokes that I only cook October through December.  He may be right…

I’m trying to get back to eating well and phasing out most animal products. I promise, I will live to eat another egg, but I’ve gotten a little out of control in the few weeks since my half. I’ve been downing bacon cheese burgers, tacos loaded with sour cream and cheese, mac & cheese, bacon, egg, and cheese biscuits – do you see the cheese theme I have going on here? I am clearly a cheese addict. The first step is admitting it, right?

Saturday I made a an easy healthy vegan recipe to revive my whole foods eating habits (it was delicious too!):

Mushroom & Barley Soup

Ingredients:

Note: the veggies I selected were a result of a fridge dump.  

1/2 lb shiitake mushrooms, thinly sliced

3-4 carrots, peeling and diced

2-3 stals of celery, diced

1 small onion, diced

1 small head of bok choy, roughly chopped

1 medium red pepper, diced

4 cloves of garlic, minced {I make everything extra garlicy, feel free to tone it down}

1 1/4 c quick cook barley

4 c vegetable broth

2 c water

1 t dried thyme

1 t marjoram

2-3 T olive oil

s&p to taste

Directions:

In a big pot heat oil on medium and sauté  mushrooms, garlic, and veggies for about 7 min until tender.  Add broth, water, barley, herbs, salt and pepper.  Bring to a boil, cover, and reduce to simmer for about 20 min.

easy healthy vegan recipe

This was such an easy meal to prepare and it made enough to feed my ravenous family of four for 2 days!  Well, one dinner and leftovers for lunch.  I will be definitely be adding this to the rotation!  Brace yourself a meal plan may be following and even more recipes now that we’re in the thick of my favorite season!

What are your favorite fall foods?

 

I ran 13.1 miles and didn’t die


A little over a year ago I downloaded the C25K app to get my post partum ass in shape. It was hard, I whined a lot, my hips hurt, and the jiggle of the baby pouch grossed me out.

But it got easier and then I was running the Turkey Trot {in 36 min}.  I continued to run off and on and the more I did it, the more I liked it.  My runs were the only “me time” I got – 1 solid hour with no small person tugging at my pant leg or screaming at me to get more “chiss” (that’s CC speak for string cheese).

Through the holidays I started slacking, life got busy and it was pretty frosty out. Stuffing my face with pumpkin pie and drinking Shiraz seemed to be a much better choice. I was also dealing with some PPA, and running fell by the wayside.

Seven months ago my dad passed away very suddenly and I made a decision to get my shit together and to start DOING all the things I’ve always said I would do tomorrow, next week, next year, some other time. In my grieving state I hastily e-mailed my cousin, B and pretty much told her she was running a half with me.  The only requirement was that it had to be in Atlanta.  Within and hour I had registered for the Allstate Life Insurance 13.1 Marathon.

By 6:30AM Sunday morning, B, her friend T, and I were heading to our corrals.

6:45am, before the race
We got our medals!

And now it’s done….I actually did it!  The first 7 miles were pretty great, 8-11 kind of made me want to die {or at least made me question my sanity}.  The Atlanta hills were pretty rough.  Then all of a sudden I was in the home stretch, crossing the finish line with an official chip time of 2:45:44.  Maybe it’s the runner’s high talking, but I’m already thinking about another one in March and kind of want to get it under 2:30.  Crazy?  Don’t really think so these days.

 

Holy Birthdays, Batman!

September is the big birthday month for my familia.  Me, Em, my mama, my BIL (brother-in-law), and more friends than I can count AND it’s kicks off my favorite season!  It’s a good month indeed.

First, I turned the big 3-0 on Sunday!  We were in Williamsburg celebrating our friends Erin and Raj’s wedding for the weekend.  I was so busy hanging out at the winery that I almost forgot about the fact that I’d soon be crossing over into a new decade.

Birthday girls

I woke up early, went for a 4 mile run (and got lost), and headed back to the room where my mom, Em, and my sister and her BF were packing up.  We spent the morning walking around Colonial Williamsburg and showing Em William & Mary (her future college, of course!), ate at the Cheese Shop for some house and bread ends…you know, for old time’s sake. Then, because she was so amazing on this trip, we let Em go to town at Wythe Candy Store.  Then it was off for a 6 hour drive back home.

I got home to presents!  SHOES!!!

Topsiders
Aldo pumps

I can’t believe I’m THIRTY.  I’m not really sure how that happened.  I think it’s going to be a hell of a decade, though :)

And to make me feel a little bit older, my baby big girl turned four today.  Exactly 4 years ago to the hour, I was high on endorphines and oxytocin, chowing down on a Carnegie Hall Deli rueben, and snuggling a brand spanking new baby.  Again I ask, HOW DID THIS HAPPEN????

How did my itty bitty squishy go from this….

first day home
pardon my pre-DSLR photos

…to this….

full of attitude at the pool

…in the blink of an eye.

It blows my mind, but I’m not sure I could ask for anything better in this life than to have 3 great decades under my belt and the most awesome 4 year old out there!  Cheers to birthdays!

Malibooze2012

Raise your hand if you have flown across the country to meet up with 25 e-friends!

That’s just what I did two weeks ago. Go on, I know a “that’s crazy” is just dying to come out….I’ll wait…

I don’t really blame you because I said it pretty much every day until I landed at LAX (2 hours late).  Six years ago I scoffed at message boards and thought investing in people you din’t know IRL (in real life) was beyond weird.  Then I started working at The Knot (now XO Group) as the project manager for The Bump.  When I found myself pregnant with my first daughter, I went to the only place I knew – TB boards.  Almost 5 years (a move, and two jobs) later I’m still posting daily (and facebooking, texting, calling, skyping) with the same group of women.  So when our private off board decided to have a big get together how could I miss out?

I am SO glad I didn’t miss out.

In the last 4+ years our little online community has gone through a lot together – new babies, moves, divorces, marriages, great accomplishments, hardships, and unimaginable losses.  We offer support, a place to vent, and band together to help lift each other up. It’s taken awhile, but these women have gone from my “mom board” to “internet pals” to some of my most cherished friends.  I guess I learned a thing or two about the kinds of relationships that can be cultivated online. I’m glad I was proved wrong and have had the opportunity to get to know and be a part of such an amazing group.

I am SO happy I finally got to give more than just an e-hug to some of these ladies…and I mean, who else would bring their best striped dress just for a jumping selfie?

Can I just tell you how amazing our Malibu house was?  Our neighbors included Kenny G and Patrick Dempsey (who completely ignored our twitter invites…pfft, his loss).

Our girl over at Salsa Sweets made amazing cookies for us! They were almost too pretty to eat…..almost.

Suffice it to say, I had a blast and Malibooze2013 is already on the calendar.

I like to move it, move it…

I am officially addicted to running.  Never thought that it would happen and not so long ago I routinely said things like “I’d rather saw off my arm than run.” and “People who run 5+ regularly are insane.”  Well….I have yet to saw an arm off or go insane (I’m sure that last statement is up for debate).  Six weeks ago I decided I was going to run a half marathon in the fall.  It was a completely rash decision that I made in the throws of grieving my dad’s death.  I told myself I would run train for it and run it to celebrate my 30th birthday.

Nanoseconds after clicking the “Submit” button on the AllState Life Insurance 13.1 registration page I felt sick.  I’m not sure if it was the $70 registration fee or realizing that I would actually have to RUN this thing now.  In under 3:30 lest I be picked up by the shame bus (they call it something less offensive like the SAG wagon…pfft.).  I printed off my confirmation and pinned it to my bulletin board at work.  THIRTEEN MILES.  Aye, aye, aye.  Somehow I convinced my cousin, B, to run this thing with me – I need all sorts of accountability and knowing another human being would be counting on me to be there makes a huge difference.

Armed with a couple of iPhone apps (B210K and 26point2 are the most used) I started training.  Since I had completely the C25K program about 3 months prior, I started with W2 D1 or the B210K app.  It wasn’t too bad, but I could not imagine running more than 5 miles.  By W6, I was hooked and experiencing that elusive “runner’s high” – I am finally at a point where I crave it!

Last week I broke 6 miles.  My pace is still really slow, but I ran SIX motherbleeping MILES!  Finishing this race may have started out as a way to celebrate a big birthday, but every time I put on my running shoes, achieve a mileage goal, push through a crappy run…I am celebrating life.

Life goes on…

Wow.  The last time I blogged was in January.  Four months ago.  Four very long, hard months ago.

After ringing in the new year, a fresh list of goals written down, I thought 2012 would shape up to be a pretty great year.  The year I get back to my pre-pregnancy weight, run a 10K, focus more on my photography, and settle into our perfect family of four.

The Universe had different plans and in March – one week after Charlotte turned 1 – I suddenly and very unexpectedly lost my dad.  It’s something that I worried about often due to his weight, but in general the idea of losing one of my parents was one of the only things I truly feared.  I was devastated and I felt like my world stopped.  I was angry for awhile that the world didn’t stop for everyone.  They kept right on living.  I’m still struggling. but I cried less this week than I did last week or the week before that.  I miss him every day and the hurt is still very raw.

I am an optimist – probably to a fault – and even in the face of this terrible, tragic thing that happened, I try to see the positive.  I seek out all the good and beautiful things around me.  I spent five days in NM, my home state, for his mass.  It was lovely visiting with family and friends I hadn’t seen in years.  I went to the top of Capulin Volcano, my dad’s favorite place in the world, and looked out over four states.  I’m not a religious person, but I felt his spirit and it was a healing experience.  My girls were able to connect to their southwestern roots and meet people that were pillars of my childhood.  I’m so glad we spent time there even though the circumstances flat out sucked.  There really is no place like northern NM.  Or maybe…there’s just no place like home.

Em and Charlie are growing up so fast.  E “graduates” from preschool next week and will enter Pre-K this fall.  C is walking and chattering more every day.  I can’t believe how much they change in just a short time.  Further proof that the world doesn’t stop and life goes on…

E and Uncle Leonard
My “baby”

2012

Oh, hi there.  I bet you thought I fell of the face of the Earth, huh?  Nope.  Just continuing to be a half assed blogger who apparently couldn’t find a spare hour in the last 2.5 months.  Not to fear, I. AM. BACK.

A lot has been going on since I last posted.  I hired a health and wellness coach, identified and confronted the PPA I’ve been experiencing, created a budget and financial forecast (because mint.com continues to tell me that an absurd amount of money is being spent at Target with nothing to show for it), finally started hanging pictures and paintings that have been in storage for the last year and half, and being more present with my two fabulous daughters who are growing much too fast.

Add in the insanity of the holidays and well…the last few months just got away from me.

Over the next few weeks I hope to blog a little more in depth about some of the aforementioned events taking place in my life, but for now.  I will leave you with some photos :)